16 April, 2010


When I want to compare what I want to be as a mother compared to what I don't want to be, all I have to do is look at the mother of my youngest brother.
-I will not deprive my child of their father or the rest of their family no matter how much I disagree with them!
-I will not deprive my child of a good education!
-I will make sure my child is well kept and clean when in public!
-I will not subject my child to abusive and terrible people!
-When my child is old enough to decide what they want, I will let them make their own decisions and not manipulate them and tell them what they really want out of life!
They will be my everything! And I will do everything I can to keep them happy!

03 April, 2010

Happy? Easter.

The only plans made for Easter this year were with Kyle's parents and cousin on Easter Sunday. Which should be interesting since his father has no intention of talking to either of us and his mother, although very excited about the baby, doesn't really make any appearance that she likes me. Needless to say it will be a bit uncomfortable. Jess will be there which will help. I love Jess!
Meanwhile, my mom's side have NO plans whatsoever, or at least haven't bothered telling me. And though dad invited me I know for a fact that he only asked because his wife told him to. If it was up to him he would forget about me completely. He loved us all when we were little, but as soon as we grew up, he wanted nothing to do with us. Especially now that I am having a baby! Sometimes I really hate him! And I wish it didn't have to be like that! After all he put me through I still can't ignore him, he's my father! Even if he has rarely ever played the role!